He decided not to have his days measured in nicotine – to have every spare minute reduced to smoke.
In this way he recreated himself out of the spare parts of a more resolute man.
It was only pretend – Everything was pretend when you got down to it; The kind of make:believe that covers its tracks so completely that the subterfuge is forgotten.
It was a convenient trick of the mind – one of the founding principles of western civilization,
the invisible stitching with which things were put together.